I wish I could go back and say no louder
I wish I would have pushed you off of me
I trusted you with everything I had, and you ruined that with a few simple actions
Why didn't it stop that night?
Why did it continue for months?
I knew it was wrong, but I just went along with it
My body ridged with fear
I remember saying stop
But the words I said were ignored
So you could be in bliss
I still can't remember it all
My brain has saved me from the details
But it is etched in my memory and will never go away
That I am a survivor of an assault
An assault on not just my body, but mind and soul
Trust shattered
I can't even kiss without thinking of those night I lay under you
If I just said something after that first night. That first kiss. That first touch...
Would I still be broken?