I feel trapped
in our friendship

I want you to be loud
and
confidant
so i can too

But our social goings don't agree

I'm too busy
                 and
                         you're not busy enough

I stay in and read and finish homework and wish I could go out

But instead

Help out at fundraisers for the things I do
I do sports
and wish I did more

You have the time but
whisper
to a boy who hurt you and someone else
and
     I'm
         Stressed
                   about
                             US
because I don't want you to get hurt

but I don't have time

and I have problems of my own
on top of
yours
     and math's

I can't juggle everything

I want to try
I did try

But i think we grabbed at dreams
  that weren't ready to be seen

and I think I just need to stop looking for people to fix

I want FUN

Careless, loud, RAIN OR SHINE
FUN

And yours is different

Not bad.
Beautiful.

But not what I need

right now
And hopefully, this isn't selfish because
I
Love
You
and this wonderful short-lived time together

but
I can't live quietly

only talking about
him

I'm bored

Our conversation is quiet
and
repetitive
and i tired
and i just need for this urge to go away

I'm sorry
But it's for me