this feeling won't go away
like my lungs may collapse any moment
awake from chilling terrible dream with no remembrance
these constant silence and sudden scream
my surrounding is load, deafening me
i panic sometimes thinking if this is my whole life
but now i am horrified
i begin to see
pattern
whole world is moving round
unable to get around
placed in this slow moving infinity
this knowledge haunts my mortal core
and if i am to ever feel nothing dreadful
my wish shall be buried under the tombstone
even before my time comes to sleep there
i shall tell them i stopped living without them anyway