I awoke so soon
The flesh and spit
Submerging me under water
Coming back up for air
A passion that had since been long gone
To appear and drown me
Romantically.

Alone again
But not quite so alone
I wonder how you are
And I'm relieved it's done
I find myself tiptoeing
On the wordy pages
I tried to write us
Only to see now
How all of your stress
All of your anguish
It held me back
Like the whistle of a gun.

Rolling over into the darkness
Of a new bedroom
Dogs leap and give great shepherd kisses
I don't fear my independence
I revisit and hang onto it
Like it had been lost on me in the end
And I tell those I love
That the moment
You asked me to hit you
And I didn't want to stop
I knew I had
Had enough.

Feathered consent
I disappear under the wave
With a new man
Already
But only at my desire
At my expense
My choice
Walking the tightrope
Of exactly what I want
Once again.