there are girls who exist just like the ocean, she is in love with the moon she lets stars run through the gaps of her gentle fingers like sand she will say that she has been in a love that burns and all she will tell you is that it keeps her humble and you look at her, all sad and made up and empty space and you see something you need to fix, some tide you need to find a rhythm to while she brushes her hair with the sunlight and she fills her mouth with seashells maybe she is not entirely beautiful because she is not entirely here because she would rather float around tied down to the world like a balloon on a string and you see this girl, all tired eyes and pouty mouths, cheeks like wine and movements that drip honey from her legs and you think that maybe if you say the right words, you can keep her close to the ground you can cover her mouth as she wishes to be a part of the earth a part of the trees, a part of the flowers that grow around her feet when she walks you think for one second, you can take all of her not-entirely-beautiful and tame it like a wild horse like a rose you pick the thorns off of but you cannot love something that cannot be restrained i am telling you, there are girls who are made up of other people's words and their handprints tattoo her body, she has been hurt but she remains kind and warm like no one has done her wrong, and her hair is always messy and you cannot have her because you do not know how to love tender, you do not know how to be humble like she does you are not soft enough to keep her in your hands without breaking her. she is in love with the moon because she knows she is made up of something else entirely, she does not need your love to keep her contained. she does not need to be contained.
i tried to write a poem about how sad i feel but i think i ended up just writing about how i dont need anyone to make me whole. i think i just needed to write something down.