Johnny 16 years old, dear (diary) journal whatever,

Ive been a hypocrite

Ive been a hypocrite because i hate school yet i follow around the norms and the rules and their curriculum when i believe a student will never learn from them,
Ive been a hypocrite because my classmates ****, but then they ask me for life advice and i give it to them expertly
And how funny is it that i hate them but i like helping
Ive been a hypocrite because i hate my acne of a face so i embarrasingly ask for ****** tips from my sister Jessica, yet i claim that i dont care anyway
Ive been a hypocrite because i debate over human rights with my teacher yet i think about the end of the world too much
Im a hypocrite for giving my virginity to some older woman just because i want to feel HUMANE
to feel like THEM, like all the people i hate
And maybe that is why i dont like LIVING because i become "them"

Will i be CURED if i become them?