you say, "the light is hurting my eyes now more than ever."
i squeeze your hand in mine and whisper, "let's make it worse together." you take a breath so deep it rattles the entire room.
i can't see past four years ago, but your eyes are closer to mine than i've ever felt them before.
i can feel your heart in your ribs, knowing it used to be higher.
i tell you that i had a dream the other night about us falling apart, about you losing your lungs, losing your mind, feeling worse than i ever could, and letting a missing love lead you to the glistening dark blue stones.