In the bed I lay awake
I pray the lord my soul to take
These feelings inside they don't go away
I try to act fine but my mind doesn't stray
I want out of my head and into the dark
A minute of peace to make it less sharp
I want to be okay and not feel all the time
An escape from myself and escape from my mind
I'm tired of hearing "it's gonna be fine "
I grab the bottle and give it a shake
Thinking about how many I'm gonna take.
I just want to sleep to get away from it all
I don't care how I get there I just want it gone
I grab a handful probably at least ten
Close my eyes and wonder if I will open them again
Either way I'm fine
I just want an escape
I don't know how much my heart can take.
I know these thoughts are crazy but they still exist
There is so much to live for but it feels like this is it.