I love you.
That scares the hell out of me.
In some ways I've never loved anyone more.
The love I have for you feels simple and perfect.
It comes with no effort.
Almost as if it has always been there.
As if apart of me has always loved you.
It comes without thought.
The way I feel for you is unexplainable.
Why I feel this way is unexplainable.
It's almost as if I'm supposed to be loving you.
Everything with you just comes so naturally.
And I'm scared.
I'm scared my medical problems will become too much.
I'm scared my depression or anxiety will become an inconvenience.
I'm scared that you'll wake up one day and find the fact that I never shut up annoying.
I'm scared that the distance will make you feel as if I'm not worth it.
I opened myself up to you in a way I didn't think I was capable of anymore.
I let you in with no option of turning around and hiding.
I don't know why I did.
I never let my guard down without a fight.
Never allow others to know how deep my inner demons lie.
I'm scared beyond understanding of losing you one day.
I've lost so many others because they weren't able to withstand my constant battles.
To lose you would be destroying.
Most of all I'm scared because I still struggle accepting that you love me enough that I have no need to fear anymore.
Especially since fear comes so naturally.