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I want to forget my existence

I want to lie in bed until I can no longer feel my feet.
The tingly sensation climbing my toes
and making my bones resemble static electricity.

Some days I think it's the only feeling I'm capable of feeling but sometimes it feels more real than
any heartfelt goodbye could.

I'm disintegrating from the inside out
My lungs consumed with shards
as my eyes fill with salty water that stings my cheeks, rolls down my face, and soils  my shirt

He said it's only for now, not long at all.
I count the days until I feel your warmth
But forever with him, feels like a second
While a single goodbye somehow assumes an eternity