I'm not sure when our relationship shifted
From moments of laughter, friendship and sisterhood
To me making you angry so quickly
And it no longer being good

I'm not sure why when we sit in a car together
We do really talk anymore
Why we both stay silent and the conversation is with the people at the front
Why it isn't like it was  before

I'm not sure why my stomach feels queasy
When I want to tell you about when I feel low and sad
But I struggle to get the words out in your presence
Because I know it tumbles out the wrong way and you get mad

I'm not sure if I can even talk to you honestly and openly anymore
Our trust is wearing thin on cracked ice
Once in a while, I hit a thin part and plunge through
Your coldness penetrating this fools paradise


I'm not sure if sorry is ever the right word
It doesn't seem to make things better with us
So I often bite my tongue and say sorry to you to keep the peace
Each time I die a little inside because of the feelings we don't discuss

I'm not sure why you laugh at other people making jokes with you
By when I do you seize up and attack me
I feel betrayed and sad all over again
And I know you're too angry and won't admit it, because you can't see

I'm not sure if we will ever go back to who we once we're
Smiling and joking as we did once upon a time
This friendship that is littered with unspoken words and broken bottles of fleeting moments of solitude and  life's well armoured pantomime