The suicide attempts The anger, the self pity Had my mind so clouded Had me wondering why my life was so shytty. I was consumed with anger My life was a mess. Once I let all of that go God allowed me to be blessed. I allowed my marriage to fail I fell into a deep depression. I allowed demons to haunt me But now I learned my lesson. I cut myself from off From friends & family. I lived in despair & depression grabbed ahold of me. I cried over losing my family I tried several times to end my life. But life kept on moving For my children & ex-wife. I came to to the conclusion That I really need to move on. But that was so hard to do When my family was gone. I wrote poetry & prayed That really helped a great deal. It helped me, when I wrote How I really & truly feel. Pauline was a great support system Her words & poems were a Godsend. I never told her this........ But I truly consider her a friend. I learned waiting for death Is no way for one to live. I should look for the good in life & strive to be positive. I stopped crying & started smiling I need my children to see that instead. They don't need to see a broken man Whose depressed, pathetic Just one step from being dead. I'll keep fighting to see my children Because they are my legacy. They are the reason why I cast these demons away from me.