How many years are you willing to be miserable?
Your whole life?
How long can you take the the rise of heat from your belly
Before it flows down those cheeks
Into your clenched fists
That hold all that you wish to be true
But does not exist

Do your hips ache
From the curve of your despair
How long can you ignore your mistake
Can you hold it in your arms
While looking over its shoulder
Secretly envying the life you dreamt of
Watching your world spin
Wondering why fate never kept you in mind

How long until your dreams crush your skull
And leave you weeping on your knees
Writhing in the depths of your suppressed dreams
How long can you hold onto your hate
Before it turns you to dust
How long before your ruins run you into your own grave

Do you break
Do you shudder at the thought of being alone
Do you regret breaking the holy bind
Are you sane
Do you smile at your freedom and rejoice at your triumph
Do you laugh in its face because you escaped your worst nightmare
Or do your bones rot from your failure
From its failure

Do you know the truth
Do you believe it
Are you happy
Do you feel all that you longed for
Tell me this