I hurt myself more than what you think.
I bite my tongue and cheek and lips in anger.
I chew the skin from around my fingers.

Its passive aggression

Its me trying to survive

its just something small

cover up this huge gaping hole.

Its Obsession
its compulsion

and when I was on acid the truth came out.
I tasted the blood and like a child

I spoke

I hurt myself all the time you know?
I giggled
I dont know why, I wish I could stop.
(embarrassed)
I bite the tip of my tongue, its always swollen.
I chew my tongue like gum I cant stop.

Looking to you my sweet husband as if you were my father
Please love the way I was never loved by any one else.
I have hidden so much from the world in hopes of survival
and its killing me