Zero. i’m a thousand miles away. breathe in deep. let it out. the sounds flowing out of my vocal chords fall on deaf ears, they fall on Nothingness. breathe in deep. let it out. i’m on another planet in another solar system. breathe in deep. let it out. and i’ve never even seen earth. i’ve never even seen Home. breathe in deep. let it out.
One Year. i’m getting there, i promise i am. it’s just so Difficult. breathe in deep. i think i’m on saturn, now, or maybe neptune. i can see earth in the distance. it’s Close. sometimes when i shout i can tell that people are trying to listen to me. maybe i’m the one who’s Stopping them. Let It Out.
Two Years. i’m here. and finally, finally, i am Better. this is what home is supposed to feel like, this is My earth. i am here, and i am describing every inch of my journey in words that spilled out of my fingers and out of my veins in less than five minutes. here i am, my first time on the planet, giving you my deepest secrets and my worst recoveries and my reasons for being who i am in the only way i know how, and expecting Nothing in return. you can hear me. and you’re Listening.