For the past days I've thought about a lot of things
Lately there have been many announcements,
from baby showers to wedding rings

Not that I'm looking for any of that at the moment
I just realized that I've been less focused
Distracted by what I want
blind for what I got

It's not fair
you don't get to feel what I feel
but at the end of the day you are always here

I'm slowly dying
wanting to like what you're supplying
wanting to like your personality,
your speech, drive, just you in totality

But I can't
You hurt me daily, not sure if its on purpose
You belittle me, make me feel bad about myself
never good enough and always at fault

But...
I love that your consistent, always there
I love that you physically care
I love how you push me to my limit sometimes
I love that I can be myself with you any time

How can I let go?
When I don't like you
But I love you