Tiny human growing inside
Mama loves you already
Five weeks and Six days
Thats how long you've been Here

I cant wait to hear your heartbeat
Daddy cant wait either
Are you a boy?
A girl?

I cant wait to watch you grow
To hold you in my arms
And welcome you to this world
To watch you become someone wonderful

But do I have the right?
Do I have the right to be over the moon?
I feel guilty being so happy
When this isnt my time to shine

I feel guilty and hesitant to share
I feel like If I do
I will lose someone who means
Everything to me.

I feel like I am messing up her moment.
Like I dont have the right to open up
I feel torn and lost and utterly alone
I dont believe I can reach out to her

Im so sorry this happened
I never meant to **** things up
I promise I'll stay in the shadows
This is your shine. Not mine


Just know sis
I love you dearly
And That I am so sorry
For always ruining things for you.