Maybe you'll stay away just today
I don't like to tell you I hate you,
our history, our passion and dark nights
I depend on you for my sanity.

Take control of me, when inside you it's easy
to not think, to be numb...

But wait, I hate you
I despise your every angle,
the thought of you shuttered on the asphalt makes me smile.

I'm a fool cause I thought I could trust you,
you said you'd be there for me to be rescued...

I want to drink so I can forget,
one drink per thought,
and now I see clear and blur
at least I muted you for a while...

I've gone without you for long before,
when I didn't feel, nor react...

I own you,
why won't you obey my commands?
why the only way to have you, is to be lost?

For every thought I'll drink some poison,
for every night I'll take a pill,
until I can feel my heart stop,
and with my last tear, hear you shutting up...

[whispers]...are you there?...
[whispers]...
... [gasps]