I never quite understood the worth of tact Say the words that you mean and don't take them back. I spoke my mind when I saw it fit to be told And I may not have been rude but I was always bold.
But here I am biting the tip of my tongue off Wondering, if I speak, will your laughter stop? I regret my words and I regret my silence equally I wonder if you've had enough, are your sick of me?
I never considered that I maybe go too far I teased too much, laughed a little too hard. I remember how happy you used to be I see how that's changed in my company.
I'd like to apologize for being too serious It's not odd to me, I've always been a mess. I am sorry for forcing you to be part of a team I never intended to hurt you despite how it may seem.
I am a nuisance, forgive me this, I tried to hide it I am shrill and annoying, more than you should put up with. I am a child masquerading as an adult; I know I'm failing I am disloyal and filthy- ****, really- I've thought of bailing.
I'm sorry. I hate this. I hate me. I'm not quite sure what I'm living for. I miss being sad for reasons I could understand and fix. I miss October of 2014. If I could go back, I'd have more courage. I'm a **** for thinking that. I'm sorry you met me, I will ******* up. I'm sorry. I'm honestly the worst. So conceited and self interested and superficial and petty and spiteful and ******. I hope you don't hate me in the end. I hope you. I don't know. I hope.
Some things I felt that I didn't want to post at the time