When I'm not back home in the city where the bulls cry in fumes, **** goes awry.
The girl that I loved once, calls twice.
And then a third time, I pick up, and it's war from the first breath.
D-Day on a tuesday night, the troops storming the shore, the bombs blazing in the infrerno of night, my ex calling me talking about compassion.
So what did I do? really?
I just tried to be civil.
I tried to tell her that my heart was in another place, that it was bending and finally broken.
Compassion doesn't live here anymore, because so many questions about cheating with white girls, the same kind that her irish-italian blood resembled, boiled down to self-hate.
I tried to tell her that I was in love, that I was over her, that these arguments were the mute points of her politicism.
She couldn't sway me with a thousand dollars or a million.
I was in love and it hurt to argue, because I wasn't talking to the one, I wanted to.
I was ******* with heathers, when I wanted to know more about flying eagles and the depth of feminism.
I wanted to know how deep it reached her heart, and how.
So now, I'm angry that you called, because it wasn't the number I wanted, not the voice so clear and liquid as truth.