no one ever taught me to feel
only to never do it aloud
im always surrounded by those
too busy to help me
but love to see me smile
i never understood
why people want
not work
until i felt real hurt
and slept
while everything got worse
my pain came mailed to my place
with no return address
it clung to me so tight
im forced to call it mine
violating my body
but never tying the knot
making difficult to know
whats real or whats not
the river refuses to drown me
just forces me to float along
passing by many sights
that may or may not be home
feeling adult pain
before i could sign a lease