Here I am in the yard again, shovel in one hand, plastic bag in the other, trudging toward the fence in my slippers, determined to not feel squeamish.
The dog has been scolded and brought into the house; she whimpers at the back window, watching my progress across a quarter-acre of dormant grass dusted with morning snow.
Up close, fixed by death, the squirrel bares its teeth, white and sharp, its eyes the size of juniper berries.
I tilt it into the bag, blood smearing the rusted shovel, and turn back, surprised by the heft of lifelessness, how dead weight pulls a broken body down.
Gravity, it occurs to me, is a relentless undertaker.
I walk and the bag swings like a soft pendulum banging against my leg, counting out my steps, confounding the dog.
You see, our yards are nothing but undug graves.
If gravity is our undertaker, then physics has pocketed the stars, wearing a funeral suit blacker than outer space.