Finish off the bottle,
Regardless of the time,
I don't need to sleep,
I'll just do another line,
I'll skip work tomorrow,
I've got better things to do,
Friends keep on calling,
But I'm not really in the mood,
Alone in my own company,
Just me without my thoughts,
Thinking about my problems,
Is a process I have fought,
I'm in a mode of self-destruction,
But I don't really care,
There are people I can turn to,
But I don't really want to share,
So I'll ignore my problems,
And just go day to day,
I never thought that I,
Would live my life this way,
But here, Right now,
I've got no energy to try,
I'm using all I have,
Trying not to cry,
How long can I go on like this?
Without falling off the edge,
Wanting to want to live,
But wishing I was dead.