You’re so **** pretty and I don’t just mean your long eyelashes or your majestic flowy hair or the way your eyes go all crinkle and your face goes all squish when you smile, nope. You’re just you’re so **** pretty just as a human being just in who you are and how you try and I just can’t think of any solid reason why you have to deal with so much ****.
Bad things happen to good people, sure, and I’ve always known that the world doesn’t always operate based on common sense but I guess I never fully understood the full scope of that concept until I saw you cry. Because when you walked up (it’s no exaggeration to say) you were glowing. You literally blinded everyone but you kept insisting that you could only absorb light, not emit and I just don’t get it.
My parents are doctors so believe me I know very well that the heart is an ***** the size of your fist, no more and no less. I know it, I do but you’re just going to have to believe me when I say that there are times when I’m talking to you when my own personal fist-sized ***** just swells right up and expands to push against the sides of its ribcage, because if it’s true it it’s really true that the brightest star in all the universe might look in the mirror and mistake itself for a black hole, then surely surely no natural laws no physical properties no rules or biological normalities apply to the human heart? Surely.
There aren’t many things I can say with full confidence. The future frightens me the past confuses me and I frankly am not sure why I’m still here in the present (???) but like it or not here I’ve been for eighteen (better or worse) years and in that time there haven’t been many people that it often bothers me to be in a room without (which would be totally irrelevant if it weren’t for the fact that I walked into Westminster Abbey today and just wished the mega-posh British security guard was you)