Sometimes my loneliness overpowers me,
Heavier and more powerful than a dray horse on my shoulders
Tugging at my soul,  straining my heart and squeezing my tear ducts

How can one feel lonely in a family?
Outside, exteriorised, unlovable.
Feelings are intangible, they're just there for the owner to be tormented and burdened by.
Influenced by others, those one believes one is loved by, understood and cherished by.

Friendships too can have this effect.
A short text, ignored call can send one spinning downwards into the abyss of claustrophobic loneliness
Where rescue is a desire of fantasy.
Loneliness is my brother...