She wants to be free
She wants to be released from the chains of pain and anxiety
She wants to stop asking herself the questions she long answered
She knew it's over
She knew that everything that is keeping her from going on
are just fragments of her vague happy memories
Those are long gone
But she still stays
She doesn't want to
But she just can't
She asks Why?
How?
She answers then,
The thing that kills you is
the only thing that made you feel alive.