i would like nothing more
if it wasn't so empty
i would be lying to say
i never loved
how feeling Nothing
made me feel
only the pieces
of whatever
i loved you with

i can't say my friends
have never seen me
taking it hard

when you vanished

i had that that Look
you get when
you finally
finally
finally dare
a very, very
intimate embrace
only Abandon
was perfect
for Hopeless

i must admit i thought
the pain made
your beautiful Cruelty
almost mean
whatever
girls like you
Always tell the Devil
to say

how 'the pain was all she had to give, and my love wanted everthing she had '

my first real laugh... ached...but...
thought you should do Vegas.

or visa-versa.

and so
with that
everything hurt more
just knowing
i could
let it go

i could be removed
and still live with
all the shrapnel
you so lovingly made sure
was in the Bomb

my friends have told me
they saw me surrender

when they knew exactly what it was

when i dared to feel Nothing at all
they saw a broken heart's
first love.

And that look told all my friends
it heard someone say
you died.

and the Devil bought a ring.