So, I was having a bad night last night... wrote this and never edited it. Just trying to vent, so not a poem*

I'm at this place where I'm lost within my horrors of desire and despair. I'm losing my mind trying to find my heart and my demons are dragging themselves at my feet whispering me to **** what I love most and let go of the hope I have because they have a shot of pleasure to give but the price is way too high and I can't find my way out and they whisper louder and louder and louder and more, until I can't take it and I stamp and stomp to **** them but they dart to and fro and nothing I do works because they want me dead and they're better than me! I give up! I give in! No I don't! Don't let go! My head is pounding and my heart is racing as I run for my life when my life is chasing me and hounding me because my entire past is a failure and I'm terrified of failing again because I see myself as only a failure so I should give in but the fool's hope in me hijacked my system and forces me on.

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