can't breathe body burning chest on fire heart in flames no oxygen no breathing no sounds no speaking nothing but a heart barely beating burning hot burning cold then just cold stone cold numb frozen suffocating not from lack of air from lack of love lack of life lack of will to live lack of happiness a puzzle in which i do not fit suffocating but not by pillow not by blanket not by choice the things i cannot control are the things that are slowly killing me suffocating me no one to help me no one to stop me no one to save me no one just me