Tenderness. That was the name of my pain. It was not the bitterness that makes us take down photographs or change the song. It was not about bitterness. It’s about tenderness and distance
I learned that the silent pauses between gusts of wind causes more sound than running facets.
I learned when you’re ******* for feelings You start to feel the weight of the ceilings We just hold on our backs and call it 'dealing.'
Trying to achieve the humility of a willow tree Turning yellow in the slow descent to winter But I’m not going to wait to give you what you need White knight, tonight, I leave Because I know you’ve been living in me like a splinter Strong enough to puncture Weak enough to be removed This glass castle is just a structure That could be improved
But you already made a house And now you’re trying to pick out decorations Let me tell you, humans are not decorations Another human should be a matched foundation I think you almost saw that too When you felt the vibration of the wind from me to you
Terrified because it’s never about growing it’s about pride. Too scared of showing the days we cried cried so hard it became the anthem of our week. No, we can never show we are weak
Terrified The fragility of our pride So we disconnect, in order to protect.
Let me tell you, no one describes this life as a glide If they do, they lied Everyone is terrified or uninteresting Yet we are all putting up walls and distancing
Farther and farther What would it feel like if I asked you about the sound of tenderness? Or what it looks like to be repaired? We are so afraid of being unprepared we don’t hear how the wind sounds like children growing How healing feels like the roll of the river and just because you shiver does not mean you will be cold forever and those silent pauses between gusts of terror when we are just a step away from pulling that lever are the moments we should reflect on These are all those things that cause us to be terrified and learn to be tender