now that I am at that point I see what he was talking about now that I’ve lived this long I understand his words he taught me valuable lessons that I had been too young to learn he told me it was all about choices, choices that put us here
Perhaps I was not old enough or wise enough not prepared to pass these lessons on perhaps too young and making decisions before the path had begun staring blindly before the track was laid
He warned me it could go this way, driving driving while still having to pay, headstrong unwilling to sway I thought I knew better than he, my mistake my bond to hold tight in my own foolishness
I thought it was ready to pass it on I thought I had seen enough, my mistake for one I love, through my lack of guidance paid with days he cannot get back
my son, I have let you down, the hour was late with the word you went that night as a boy and fate and pain forced you on forced you on into an early manhood, days lost, forever lost wearing the green, waiting for us, behind cold walls
taronis --11 Written for my son Joseph. I felt that I failed him for my lack of guidance.