Living like a shadow and it feels as though the end is nigh. Your love got me so high, but for years my mind has been trying to die. Who am i now? I guess it's hard to tell. Everything keeps changing back and forth so i'm beginning to dwell. Dwell on the fact that life used to be worth it. Now i'm not so sure i even have a purpose. I used to ask myself why you left. Now i'm so ******* lost i'm more than just a wreck. I can't seem to find any reasons for me to have met you yet. But i'm happy i did, despite what we've been through. So as i sit here and try to gather all of my thoughts. I'll try to think of a reason as to why i don't deserve to rot. I know i've seen better days but to have more seems hopeless. I'm sitting on this hospital bed wondering where the hope is. Yeah i guess my throat still burns from death's cold embrace. But until i can see you again i'll try to keep a smile on my face.