Tennis shoes and overalls
So little on my face
But I still get singled out
In prophetic movements towards
A colorful flowing light
And then I'll make a mistake
Ebb and flow again

I won't and can't lie
October always a hard time
But I'm interested in breaking patterns
Repeat
I'm interested in breaking unhelpful habits
Swan legs
Head PA said I got such a face
I look like I oughta be in front of the camera
I love it when everyone thinks I'm 22
And they all say my name like they
Swallowed a bag of glittery marbles
And I duck my head down
And sometimes don't understand
But go at it
Again and again

I'd rather sit
In the chair that unfolds
And will read my last name on the back
A mentor of mine said yesterday
We discussed what it means to be a director
He said its one of two things
You either enjoy the process
Or you like listening to yourself.

But what if I'm also just a visionary
And it's time some **** got made
And it's tough 'cuz sometimes folks
They just out to get me
But then again I will hear swarms of flies
And maybe it's all just in my head.

I don't quite know yet
A woman today spoke in a hushed tone
And told me not to say as a PA that I wanna be a director
But then we both sorta laughed
And said **** it.

I'm gonna go to my boyfriends house now
I think I might marry this man
Yes yep
I think I might marry this man
And I think he might marry me.
Everyone knows you baby
They got nothin' but the best things to say
And I break habits
Remember and surpass patterns
Voice what I feel
Grow with me or go
All of you

I don't ever  wanna fight with chaos
Or cruelty
I'm so sorry you feel shut down sister
I'm so sorry you feel diminished
I want you to feel good and strong
You deserve it so.

But I'm just a girl
In an orange hat
22
But really 26
With a face
That hopes and just goes
With sincereity
And vigor.