photograph One: i see you, and the first things i see are your dark eyes you sit beside me with open hands and make me laugh over coffee.
photograph Two: one night i notice your mouth. you haven't drank but i have. still all i see are your eyes when you first lean in. i'm aroused and utterly haunted.
photograph Three: you're so pale i want to colour you in. i want to make you alive. you're dancing so frenetically, my marionette man and i can't tell who tugs the strings.
photograph Four: It's after midnight and you've stormed from my house snarling like a wolf waiting to die. "i'm poison" you spit. "i'll poison you, too". "you and me." i plead. "i won't run".
photograph Five: it's a cloudy day. you tell me you love me without looking me in the eye.
photograph Six: you're standing in the open doorway against winter wind dragging a half-quit cigarette and i am hugging my knees on your couch waiting for you to calm our eyelashes smeared chilly with tears.
photograph Seven: you are lying on the floor, heaving with sobs. i am holding you as tight as i can because i don't know what to do and i'm afraid if i let you go you will cremate in the heat of your darkness already we are both husks.
photograph Eight: we lie awake in your cold bed and we are strangers you will not touch me and i feel naked.
photograph Nine: i awoke at 4am from a dream of you that was a lie many months after i fled from your ghost and like an infected wound it still throbs hotly that i could not save you and that for so long i could not save myself from you the dark-eyed boy with the angel tattoo