Where can I go
Where no one would judge me,
Where I could be normal
Like I was in my dreams?

My thinking was "confused"
And no one knew why.
There was no escape from unwanted feelings,
No matter how hard I would try.

How could I go on living like this,
In a world where too many knew?
To ignore or even deny these thoughts
Was all I wanted to do.

What do I do if I don't understand. . .
Have an escape, or even a plan?
I can't just sit back and dream it away,
Not even at another's demand.

If there is a God up there in the sky
Why won't he take this burden of pain
So far out of sight I can't see it again?
Until then all I'll feel is shame.