Although I could lay in a warm oyster
With the pearls and calamities of what has gone right
And what has felt wrong
And though some heads might turn to me
And ponder
Why must you still think on it?
My brain, my heart, my thoughts
Must always decipher
Visualize
Create
And move on along.

It had me thinking
About the times I yelled for you outside of your window
I was convinced you had a woman up there with you
(I never found out if you did)
I think of mustard yellow
And the blue of your eyes
I wonder if you are well
When we were single and lonely
You were a hit on my list
We no longer speak
I know you are a danger to me
And for that reason
I nod but watch
Kissing and smoking on rocks
Petting lamb chop
Breakfasts and fantasizing about dogs
I felt so nervous so lost
Always had bottles of liquor around
My girlfriends ate your chocolate birthday cake
And drank blood out of your glasses
I spent the summer trying to win you back
And it worked so well
My God, thinking back
It worked so well
And then it all shattered before me again
Until I let you in to kiss me and forget me
Abandon and leave me
And it took me falling into cinema
To watch you go
And be so glad
You were really mean anyway.

This one.
I think he might still live in my old house
I wonder and feel wary to walk by
Tomorrows time
But I have so little to lose now
We saw you where you work
My ex pulled me away
We didn't stay to eat
He told me you laughed mockingly
When you realized it was me
I felt your tension your violence
After all of the years of silence
You wanted to marry me so
But you ripped holes in the wall next to my head
And I fought back in moments of fear
For what was I supposed to do
When you were a monster
Who can lose?

A set of long eyelashes or two
Avocados pile up and they cruise
I heard your father passed away
I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry
And thats all I can really say
I gave you my bed frame
Some lamps and some things
You were so sad to watch me go
Made love to me on the floor
I think I cried
But I was so ready so ready to fly
You weren't bad just crass
And not for me or my.

So many lovers lost and confused
I ripped up leaves and settled them too
I'll smell fall air
The wind in my hair
And remember how I whimpered and sang
"He's not here, he's just not here."

And then you came.

I can skip over the distraction of boredom and lust
I ran face first into dust
The dust of bones buried
The dust of bones renewed
And hang my hat on a stoop
I think back on it now
And see a flurry of red flags
High and mighty in the ground or the sea
Every small and big act
Just wrong
So wrong
Hesitant from the start
So willing
For fear
Until we ripped apart
And I'm so glad we did.

And it was all so worth it.
Because it brought you to me,
Cannon.