Cigarette ash on your bedsheets awake on coffee and tea. I do not want to be the person you know like the back of your hand or for you to know the titles of every poem I have written I want you to touch me distractedly. I want a boy with a car and a mindset like yours. we do not need to make ourselves into anything beautiful with each other. we are ugly, empty poets. therefore, you love me for what i am. but if you don't love me, go ahead and tell me. your tongue stained with coffee you're not just some ******* artist who is going to fill my heart with lilies and paint. and I want you to make it hurt as much as you ******* can. teach me the world is cruel. because if you can teach me how to write love poems, you sure as hell can show me how to be dark all over again. this isn't about creativity and this isn't art this is existing.