kind, calm, gentle Ez, look back at the way you are feeling right now, on this empty train with your headphones in, no care for anything else. Now take that feeling and swallow it so it can flow to your heart.
Life is good. Life is hard, Life will always be hard Ez, But it's not like you don't know that already, Embrace it. But know...
He would be proud. So proud of you, of big, old, kind Ez.
He is here. Here.
There are people who love you, Ez, let them love you.