I want to choose myself and put myself first and be strong enough to see myself through and be who I am meant to be. I want to have a good relationship with my family and I want this house to be home. I want to get things right this time; I want to stop keeping secrets. I want to fully accept that this life is my reality, on borrowed time. I want to be the girl all the people I love believe me to be. I want to be beautiful, smart, strong, and deserving, on my own terms. I want to reach my full potential and be happy and content with the hand I have been given because I owe myself that much. I want to chase my dreams and not fear the consequences. I want to be myself and have that be enough. I want to stop wanting to go back to the past just to redo a few things. I want the present to be so good, I stop wishing for the future. I want the fact that everything gets better to be in etched into my heart and mind that I don’t need other people to constantly remind me. I want to do better in school. I want to make myself proud. I want to be healthy and full of soul. I want to be better. I want to give the world a genuine a smile and I want to stop faking my I’m fine’s and my I’m okay’s. I want to look in the mirror and like what I see. I want to go through each day believing that I am earning my way to deserving all the good that’s happening to me and that everything will make me stronger. I’m still here and I’m trying. I hope you’re proud of me.