I'm reading a book about
How to love
I hear at times it starts with a crush
But how do I even begin to
Fall for the idea of a person
Someone most times unrealistic
Grappling with a feeling I have no control over

I think I know what the problem is
I've dug myself into a hole I've forgotten how to get myself out of
I need to keep digging till I can find light in the form of a lover
But my mind has to be receptive of an idea to cultivate it

So here I am, stuck
Trying to make sense of this book about love
When In reality it reads like a book about despair