Every time I close my eyes,
I think of all the times I had to hide.
And every time I see you smile.
I wonder why you didn't stay for awhile.
And I'll try to hold back my tears.
And I'll try to help you through your fears.
But just know, inside I'm dying.
And I hate the fact I'm always lying.
I don't think I can do this anymore.
I tried so hard to close the door.
But somehow you always find your way back in.
I can never speak, I'm forced to listen.
I stay silent, for what seems like ages.
Forced to write my unspoken thoughts on empty pages.
Hoping one day I can finally be free.
Because after all of this, somehow I know it's meant to be.