I feel the buzz in my mind and soul the feeling you want to chase the shooting stars with. Again and again.

I feel fine
I feel weak
I feel like ****
I feel like the worst hang over
I feel sick like a drug addik
I feel dizzy at 3 am
I feel like puking my  guts outhe.

I feel like I can't stop my sick addiction even though I have tried to get clean but relapse  has stopped me dead as can be.


I wonder what it feels like to be clean from the energy drinks that runs your life heroine.



Over and over I wonder how sick I look.


12 days 56 days with diswraling getting clean.


My money has been going good fast for my fix but in reality I'm a mess.


Why have a relationship when u can hide it any more.


Why try when you only do things to get your addiction to berry you alive .



No escape no wondering get what's it like to be clean from this wrecked curse you can't leave .


Am I insane or just lost