since seeing you my mind is filled up
I was ok, really ok and not looking back
now I feel you again and I'm angry at God
I've words eating away at my spirit
you have my love tucked away behind your eyes
I understand why you are gone
I do agree that we are not seeing tomorrow
I don't want you today
I want yesterday...our first days
that is where my words could be felt
it was then that your eyes could shine
when you felt me in reality
I could have respected you
there was a chance I could wrap up in you
a fleeting chance it could have been me
me and you meeting on that bus all smiles
us making plans for tomorrow
yet I'm here today without you
thank God without you
your love for me is phoney and ugly
your passion was all I could feel
everything else belonged to others
I am not ok that you set me afloat
I am not ok that you didn't even attempt to know me
I am sad and angry at you
you, my ex lover...never my man
just a toy who I fell in love with
and like all toys you were outgrown
not as I would have it I must admit
I still believe...it should have been me

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