I feel like I lost something. But I can't figure out what, or is it a "who." Whatever it is, I forgot the how's.

I can't sleep. I'm trying to remember what it felt like holding that thing again.. I can't remember. Maybe I forgot how it felt like to be whole, or maybe that thing was not really mine from the start. Oh my god... what if I lost something that wasn't mine? Is that even possible?

I'm panicking. I can't remember if it was myself that I lost. What if I never really lost anything.. what if I'm just losing myself..again. I don't wanna go back to being incomplete.

"Hi. Do you hear me? Can you read this? Have you seen her? She looks a lot like me...but happier."