i have already embraced that sadness lives somewhere in my heart that often crashes in to say hello or it'll fade away in broken beats of "I'll be back soon." and i've already touched my dried up skin as it cracked due to apathy,Β Β dehydrated from life and energy, but i've yet to dare look at my ghost, the one with the happy sunshine times and perfect family and wasted wishes without fear of miracles dying, the one who didn't know what it's like to be one step away from breaking down and who isn't practicing how to breathe while standing on the shore, the one who still stared at stars instead of looking down at her shoes, the one who has her head in the clouds and her thoughts won't write suicide notes
i always say i don't want to go back to the nightmare-filled past but i secretly still hope everything right now is just a dream
--L.m. please wake me up now or else i'll entertain the idea of sleep again