To be refleshed at the end of your last true summer, to have fingertips—not your own—pry away the old skin and charge the nerves of the new, how could you plan something like that? You're in a new body and in an old house. The window unit moans. ***** clothes cover the floor. He's more than fingertips now. He's uncombed hair. He's shirtless and he's breath and he's in your mouth and the taste is sweet, familiar, and just far enough away to turn nameless and evaporate from where all names originate: the tongue.
But he still delivers his tongue to you, your back arching, you're a lost instrument singing, the notes bending, the melody transforming, until God's refrain rings and ricochets noiselessly in the chambers of your skull. In space there is no center, you're always off to the side.
And he's there, at your side, and you both stare at the ceiling fan and laugh. What else can you do? He is still. You are still. He starts to say your name. No more words. We are home.