does life ever feel so desperate that you find yourself relentlessly convincing yourself that you're made of something the world needs, that the sun burns in attempt to let you shine, that oxygen flows in molecules through the air just to keep you breathing but the convincing is so inauthentic that you can feel the hours passing by and the skin peeling off your cold body in an effort to escape the inner self-destruction going on my organs are afraid and my stomach turns, my eyes droop, my lungs deflate, my heart falls to the ground and shatters everything around me is trying so desperately hard to remind me of how much i don't matter, and how easily my life can be simply taken away you win because now nothing matters and in soon enough time, my heart wont have to pulse in fear my lungs won't have to heave and my eyes won't have to swing down so low because i won't matter either.