Tied myself with thin red rope Large ice cubes as large as my skull We sank down in one fluid full gulp Waved bye to mama & papa Disappeared underground.
Ladies wanna hit the night life Free drinks, wantin' some attention And I'm all 'bout that But can't seem to shake just how Don't wanna make mistakes I made and blended myself into severed pieces Before.
Flashbacks coming back like ***** bones I know its all so different I imagine taking my manicured finger And checking a list off You whisper plans to me For us Your life, as is Just with me appearing next to you in it all And its not like last time Or the time before But yet I listen to moody music at times 'Cuz I've always had a knack for self destruction.
Saturday night I procrastinate My army stands next to me firm Questions when questions must be raised I live alone now And I know what I must do But its the doing thats so ******* tough.
You tell me you adore me And I know its our stepping stone To the word love Love, love.
I heave up sticks and boulders Remember how you made my plans your plans And had no plans of your own I seem to always PTSD type o' grieve As I relish in fresh newness But, but, but Its not the same Theres nothing about this thats The same.
I can see it hum and buzz All around me like multi flecked glass I'll sit in the wooden black directors chair Asked to jump in front of lenses In unison And I switch and implement hats 'Cuz its what I've always done And its what I'm good at So sigh Sigh, let it go Life changes and carries on
Its okay to now just forget and watch it all go So that the rest may begin.