Fire tears guiding my hate and your deepest fear...
Curse you resentment
Shower me with faith
Relieve this demanding desire to bludgeon spirit and hope of the one who keeps me living
Fail me not heart so fueled
Let me surrender this which makes me merciful or set this evil in the stone, so I can transform
Let me be kind or let malevolence reign
Dominance sway no more
Rivers wrath o' sin, utilize my entire being
Or strike my heart with life, and rid this vengeance so pure
Bring the rays so warm with it's beauty so sweet and incandescent all that is right
Or swallow me whole, and blacken my eyes so all who encounter me have time to flee
Let them destroy me with true affection...
overwhelm me with good intentions
Or shatter every shred of my beauty...
Contort me to my selfish form of desire for pain, drenched in the fear that I bestow
Hummid, disgust, gasping dirt darkened night
O' sun obliging comfort O' generous warmth...
Bless me calm winds.
Take in the light and rid me of sin
Save me...
Condem me...
Do as you will...
Just do it quickly and leave me fulfilled
This was me months ago, when rage was taking over almost every one of my days.... It's crazy to look back as see these emotions when I don't currently feel this way.