I try to think through the haze of the things I have taken in. My mind seems to be a lot more clouded than usual. I can only see in tunnel vision. The things that are around me are a blur, I am not sure why that is. I try to focus on a simple thought, but I get distracted. I try to make sense of it all and retrace my steps to see where I started to lose my mind. I am not sure if this is self induced or something more sinister? I try to clear my head by long walks and not eating for a few days. I only end up lost and sick from not eating. I simply stumble back to my bed and try to quiet my mind. I think I need another fix to make the day go by. I am not sure what it will take for all of this drama to come to an end. I am not happy here anymore, I want to be me again.